COME INTO THE WORLD OF AN URBAN BOMBSHELL!: " I CHANGED MY MIND...I DONT LOVE YOU NO MORE"

December 7Th 2008, Tucson, AZ

The title of the blog shall be explained in a bit.....

Firstly I want to say a "big-ups" (inside joke) to my dear friend Miss Tiffany!! Thanks for letting me stay and party with you....and also for introducing me to you friends.

Also mucho love to the TSA Agents....y'all are some of the realest people ever...and major flirts...but hey you do your job and make me feel like a super star!!!

So after a few morning errands

on Friday December 5Th, I am driven to SFO airport. The flight was pretty uneventful...I was trying (unsuccessfully) to catch some shut eye....before I knew it I was touching down at LAX..which way my layover. After quickly purchasing one of those neck pillows...pink of course...(anyone who has seen my luggage knows why I said that)

and the book "Rich dad, Poor dad" I was off to my final destination, Tucson.

The honored birthday girl picks me up and we are off to run some more errands in preparation for her party. I finally get a chance to lay it down for some quick beauty rest. Then we are up and doing the preparation for our night out. I must finally admit...even though I am know for my "timely" preparation its my favorite part of going out. Especially when I am getting ready with someone. Dressed and definitely impressing...we make the late( I tend to rub off on people with that) dash to the club. With an expedited V.I.P. entrance to CLUB PEARL(http://www.clubplanet.com/Venues/133448/Tucson/Pearl).... We are shown to Tif's special area by Ashley(I think that's her name) who was the best hostess I have encountered thus far. we sit...the DJ is playing some throw backs....I promptly place my drink order and get ready to let loose in my 5 inch heels...(a decision I am still feeling). Everyone trickles in and the party gets started. Over all it was a pretty cool night, I met some great people that came to get down like me and got to drink a bit..since Tif doesn't...but it was not with out its issues. Her VIP area had its own dance area...which was really fly and at one point while her and I were on the speaker box ..getting it in...I snapped a picture of a cracking ass VIP. Which for this bombshell was such a relief since I'm so use to seeing a super stiff VIP ...with people just watching the unfortunate and trying to see who can do it up the best.
As I was saying before...security was not doing their job...so we had swanglers entering the VIP...girls...which believe me we had more than enough of....though to our knowledge no one was bold enough to sip on our champagne and eat on the treats. But still not cool...and guys who decided to invite girls into the VIP...when it wasn't their reserved VIP area to begin with. Not sure when that was ever okay.

my pick of NQB ...

Again...my drunk ass was not quite up on my quick snap skills..I'm so working on it for next time. But this "hand holding friend of Dorthy" is beyond not quite bombshell. See, him and his favorite "hags" decided to showcase their superior dancing skills on the private dance floor Tif's party occupied, him and his crew were asked repeatedly to vacate the area. Resulting in my birthday friend having to do the honors herself. His girls, upon our arrival back to the area, abandoned ship and left him. Actually, I cant quite say left him, because he refused to leave. And had the nerve to cuss my friend out and ask "who the fuck was she." To which the prompt response was "I'm paying for this party!" Before security could come and embarrass this rude individual, his girls saved him and he left. Much to my dismay because I would have loved to see him get tossed on his "rainbow-brite" ass.

To him I say "SISTA-BROTHA....GROW UP...AND KNOW THAT UNLESS YOU GOT IT LIKE THAT...( I mean be real..some of us do ...and some of us don't) OR YOU PAY LIKE YOU WEIGHT, THE CLUB IS NOT ALL ACCESS TO YOU..AND WHEN YOU ARE TOLD OF YOUR BOUNDARIES RESPECT IT...BEFORE YOU GET DISRESPECTED!!!

The rest of my weekend was pretty chill..minus some travel arrangement issues. But between my new reading and my mini-vacation I did get a chance to do some major thinking. Have you ever noticed that when you are away from home you can easily eliminate your normal distractions and accurately evaluate you life. I opened my eyes to plenty of my situations. In my love life, friends and family life, my financial life and my entrepreneur life. I realize that I must take more risk ...I have a very creative mind and I am not using it to its full potential. In my love and friends/family life I realized the time has come once again to purge some people from my life. For those who do not hold their weight, or after some time I am still not sure what their purpose with in my life is, I say " YOU ARE THE WEAKEST LINK, GOOD-BYE!" As a maturing individual(yea I know that wasn't very mature) these actions can be very hard on us, But I realize that ..I am the only one who can make the best decisions for me. So far...I've done a great job.

When winter comes, I tend to find myself lonely along with cold...craving the attention and proposed companionship of an member of the male species. Yet I am not mentally in the place for a meaningful relationship. I am so focused on making my dreams not only a reality but an accomplishment that I know I will ultimately hurt someone. Now those true romantics out there will loudly proclaim " when you are in a true loving relationship, you can accomplish everything you set out for in you personal, and business life," these two,in essence doing more than coexisting but empowering the other. Realistically, a relationship takes more than it gives. Especailly when you are stampeding toward your dream. The men that I am the closest with..encourage my non-relationship status, which oddly enough brings a smile to my face. Hell my parents and closest girlfriends do too. And with the particular man I'm eyeing...we are in the same place in our lives....creating and making the most of opportunities afforded to us. Now I do date...I mean I am not a hermit! I enjoy the company of a hilarious, sexy, creative man. But a relationship..is a no go...we can enjoy our time together..learn from one another, share stories and hopefully forge timeless bonds. Anything more than that, right now, I am passionately not pursuing.

So when I am singing the line from Keyshia's song, "I changed my mind, I don't love you no more!" I'm actually saying...I am loving me more. And if "the one" is unequivocally the one....our congruent paths will finally intersect and we'll be the new age Barack & Michelle.

Not only showcasing "real, unashamed love" but brains, beauty and drive!!!!